Opposite Reaction

And with every action there is an equal yet opposite reaction...And I have swung from super happy-happy to majorly down-down. I am trying to get out of it, but it is extremely difficult. I wish I could just snap my fingers and magically feel 100% and on top of the world...But I've tried and it doesn't work.

It's like I'm re-trapped in my mind again. It sucks. They speak of "perfect possessions" where the person is unwilling to defend herself against the demon...Maybe I'm that person, and I've just given up on defending myself against myself...Interesting...

Living for the TODAY

So I am DOING it!! I am making a go at it and living for the today. I know it might sound silly, but I realized that everyday, I would live it remembering the past or looking towards the future, and that's no way to go about life. Yes, stuff like this has been said by many people along the way, but it just sunk in for me.

Along with trying out the new mindset, I figured I would add-in the "enjoying everyday for what it was" mentality. I mean, I'm always looking towards the future and living for the tomorrow, but I need to start living for the day and enjoying everyday.

I'm just happy I got to this point where I actually got myself to start doing it!

I feel like I am incessantly rambling and not making too much sense...Oh well. It happens. :-)

Quickie

Damnit! I swore I wouldn't miss a month and I did! This is just me trying to not miss another month now!!

Was listening to my Jango station and "My Immortal" came on...stirred up some emotions. It's crazy how one song can make your mind just go whirling back to the "olden-days". LOL. Life is a crazy thing I tell ya...