A brief follow-up thought...

In regards to the house....

How scared is too scared? I feel like I am not exuding the excited-excited emotion that I should be over this. Is that bad? I mean, I AM excited, but should I be more so? Someone said I really don't seem that geeked over this house, but I am. Is it that I'm so freaked/happy/accepting that it IS the one, that I am turning myself off to it because I'm scared? Why am I scared? And why the hell do I keep repeating myself?! I'm not even drinking!!!!

Maybe that's what I need. I need to sit down with a bourbon on the rocks and just relax. I can't wait to see my sissy this weekend. That will make it alllllll better.

I am excited. I do want that house. I can see all the great stuff we will do to it! It's got brand-new appliances all around! It has hardwood floors (which we love btw) and a nice backyard....I should not be scared/tweaking over this. This is exciting!!! DAMN IT I will not tweak!!!!

Ok, I'm done for now...more to come later...

Thrill of the hunt??!?!

Well, it seems I have hit that time in life where I need to make a BIG decision...but I am scared to death to do it. Buying a house is a HUGE thing. I know I am just being a baby and that's why I'm scared to put in a bid, but...

AHhhhhhh. I always thought it would be so easy! I mean, I figured I would be totally at ease with the entire process, but I'm not. Is that bad? Maybe that's what is freaking me out, that I feel nervous which makes me think I am making the wrong choice? Could that be it? I think it might be that. I'm not scared to make the commitment, so what am I scared of??? I wish I knew.

And it does feel rush, though it doesn't, it does. Does that make any sense at all? We have been looking for a while and this is the first one we found that we can move into and we both like...So what is my hold up?! I hate it because I feel like I am going to be letting someone down if I go for it. But who? This is our choice! No one else's, so what am I so afraid of?

God I have no idea how I got so neurotic!!! Have I always been this way and just never realized it?!?!?

Well, I guess the next follow-up could be the BIG decision that was made, so for now I must only say...To Be Continued...