Growing Up Isn't Easy

Ya know, it's hard enough acting all adult-like when it comes to bills and monetary responsibilities and obligations, but it's even harder when it comes acting as such in your personal life.

As I usually say, I feel like I'm at the cliff's edge again, but I'm not waiting for the gust of wind, I'm just going to take the jump on my own. Scary scary scary. Not scary, just uncertain. That's an even better word for it. Because that's what it equates to: A feeling of uncertainty and just ???????.

Hopefully everything goes well. I feel uncharacteristically calm...but then I start (characteristically) over-thinking and worry that this is a "calm before the storm" feeling of calmness. Then I go bi-polar and agree with what Theory of a Deadman says...AWWWW, FUCK IT!

I can't worry about that which I have no control over. The future is always undefined and uncertain, that's what makes it mysterious and exciting! At least when I make the jump, it'll give it a little more definition (at least I hope) and perhaps shine a light at the end of the present tunnel I'm barreling down.