Close your eyes...and jump.

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain


Life is every-changing, ever-evolving. I've gotten better about letting go of the past, but I think I now need to learn that when the truth of the matter reveals itself, I have to let go of what I had erroneously always believed was "real." I am starting to see how I closed my eyes to the reality of the situation(s) around me. I'm learning (on a daily basis) that what I thought was real...What I thought was true...was nothing more than an idealistic thought. A silly, naive belief that became my reality.


This is where I take my cue from Twain...Perhaps it is time to cut the cord from what I thought I knew, take a deep breath and jump. Just have to get up that courage to not look down...and moreover, not look back.

Tears fall down like rain...

Heard this song the other day. I hit me hard, like a kick in the gut. Life has been steadily changing over the past few months. Things have come up or happened or are happening that I never in a million years would have happened. I'm talking I would have bet money...luckily I didn't because I definitely would have lost. And it really just comes down to this, "But I'll pretend I'm ok with it all...act like there's nothing wrong..." If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on When people all stare I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue Pretend I'm okay with it all Act like there's nothing wrong Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry? Cry If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart Yeah what do I care If they believe me or not Whenever I feel Your memory is breaking my heart I'll pretend I'm okay with it all Act like there's nothing wrong Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry? Cry I'm talking in circles I'm lying, they know it Why won't this just all go away Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry? Cry Cry