Tail. Tail. Tail. Tailspin.

Well, I haven't written about being annoyed/confused lately. Seems like now is as good a time as any, lol.

So a friend has been chirping me lately...a close friend, one whom I shared a lot of life lessons with. This friend's fiance FORBADE him from ever talking to me again--so much he was forced to de-friend me on Facebook and block me from searching him. (Crazy bitch, I know.) So a part of me was hurt, another part pissed, another part ambivalent...because it's another chapter of my life closed, one that I always wondered how it would end (if it would end).

Anywho, so he chirped me again tonight and all of a sudden I felt a whole crazy surge of being in limbo. Like all of a sudden he threw my mind into this tailspin where I just came to the realization that I am stuck in a strange limbo. I didn't even know it because I never really thought about it. But I feel like I'm stuck between the past and the future. Like I'm no closer to one, than the other. And in a sense, I'm not sure which lean toward.

Like I get it, I should definitely embrace the unknown of the future. Meet new people. Blaze ahead. Blah blah blah. But there's that other part of me that (duh) wants to stick with my past...probably because it's comfortable and because I don't want to lose it any more than I already have. I dunno.

I have no deep, poetic, profound ending for this babblement.