Cuz growin' up is hard to do...

Sometimes it is SO damn hard to sit here and grit your teeth and try and be nice to people when you really just want to bitch them out. They say you catch more flies with honey than you do with vinegar, but sometimes I don't know. Sometimes I think you just need to get hot-headed and let it all out to actually be taken seriously (on the phone with DirecTV customer service btw). And by george! I think it worked!

Ya know, I had such an awesome weekend, but the thought of work in the morning just wears on the brain. I do still love what I do, but I feel I just need a break from life (sadly it's not time to retire). Everything is going really well, it just seems like there's not enough hours in the day to actually live.

I realized that in school, it was ok to be dead tired. It was ok to pull all-nighters and make it through the day. It was ok to be way hungover and sneak out early....but in real life, you can't. That's what makes it so trying. You need to be at the top of your game all the time. You need to be responsible. You need to be grown up. You need to be adult. BAHHHHHH!

Even bedtime is an issue! Knowing what time I need to be up makes nightly activities so rough! I think being a Gemini I am just way to schedule-oriented. It's something I need to work on, most definitely. I don't HAVE to be up to work out...I could do it after work, but then I don't want to. And I feel so much better working out in the morning...*sigh*. God this getting old thing SUCKS!!!

I wish I hadn't wished life away when I did.