One of those nights...

Sometimes I wonder...Do I just blog to "hear" myself talk? Do I blog in hopes that the person(s) I am writing about will read them and understand something? Do I just blog because it is what comes naturally to me? I don't know. Tonight I ponder these questions, as well as many more...

Is it bad that I am as compassionate as I am? Is it bad that I take most things to heart? Is it bad that I get upset over things that are minute to others, but to me, are HUGE things? (Ok, for that last one, I know I'm a dork, because I know I care more than most, therefore I will get upset over the little things and that ISN'T a bad thing). Is it bad that I feel that at times I need to keep things in to not hurt/offend others...But in the long run, it hurts me? I think the worst of it is that I just don't express myself the way I used to, because I am scared to...

Ha! Tis one of those nights where so many questions run through my mind, yet no good answers pop up to solve the riddles. I wish there was an answer. I wish there was something that could be said that would qualm all these crazy thoughts and put them to rest, but I don't think there are any...At least, no one has posed anything to me that would...

So there it is...I am lost in thought tonight, not sure which direction to take to get out of this confusion, but I hope I figure out something...

Another test? BRING IT

Ok, so thus far, I am doing wicked-hella good with this whole "mantra" thing. However, there are some instances that it doesn't seem to do the trick quite as well as it should. Something recently happened that unsettled me, and though I am trying not to let it bother me, it is. I wrote a whole blog about it, but sadly, after rereading it, I didn't want to publish it. I felt it was too something but I don't know what that something is. I think it's because I haven't really brought-to-light what the issue is, and I don't want to go around being all cryptic about it and then have to explain exactly what it is if/when I'm called out on what exactly it is. But here is what I came to realize after writing it and publishing it, before editing and deleting it...

Blog Realization: I need to work on accepting that not everyone thinks about others the way I do, and that's ok. Not everyone has the passion for remembering people and things like I do. And with that acceptance, I also need to let go my feeling of sadness and upsettings over the situation and just move onward--step back, laugh, who's the goose, me, and let it go...deep breath and let it go...

Mantra

Take a step back.
Laugh at yourself.
Say "who's the goose? Oh! It's me."
And be done with it....

Take a step back.
Laugh at yourself.
Say "who's the goose? Oh! It's me."
And let it go...

Take a step back.
Laugh at yourself.
Say "who's the goose? Oh! It's me."
And LET IT GO...

Try it out...It works for me...