How do you say "thank you"?
How do you say "thank you" for showing me so much love? How do you say "thank you" for teaching me the meaning of love, of hate, of forgiveness? For fueling my passion for love, life, for everything I have ever yearned for? For all the sorrow, all the pain, the torment, the anguish you put me through? How do you say "thank you", when you're not thankful at all? It's not thankfulness that I feel, but greatfulness.
I'm greatful that you showed me that not only am I human, and therefore have/had the right to err, but that you are/were too. You showed me that not only are tricks up everyone's sleeves, but that what was once thought of as a full-fledged reality, was just a fictious daydream. Not only did you prove to me that not everything is what is seemed, but you also showed me that true colors show when times get tough.
I'm not angry. I'm not happy. I'm not sad nor am I extatic that things came to such and end. I'm not vengeful. I'm not sorrowful. I am not any emotion that can be labeled or defined. I am floating through my sea of thoughts and dreams, and I know that nothing can be obtained by depending on someone else for the meanings and truths that are out there.
How do you say goodbye to what was once thought of as an idea of perfection? How do you let go of what was the one thing you wanted most in life, but now realize wasn't what you wanted at all? How do you accept the fact that you were fooled by the one you loved, and though the lesson learned came at a price, it was a lesson that was priceless and amazing all in itself. I cannot explain what I mean. I cannot tell you how I feel. All I can say is that maybe at a different time in life, maybe at a different intersection, the road would have been smoother and led to the paradise we all seek in our everyday lives.
We were meant to be this way. We were meant to "end" this way. But with every end, there is a new and fresh beginning. With every close of a door, a window is opened. I know that this was meant to be this way, and nothing is better than fully knowing and understanding why things happened the way they did. For once, I am not in the dark wondering the "what if's", but I am making my way through it anticipating what's next. Holding my head up high, I am walking into the unknown, being clothed by the warmth of the sun, and preparing myself for the life I was truly meant to lead.
I'm greatful that you showed me that not only am I human, and therefore have/had the right to err, but that you are/were too. You showed me that not only are tricks up everyone's sleeves, but that what was once thought of as a full-fledged reality, was just a fictious daydream. Not only did you prove to me that not everything is what is seemed, but you also showed me that true colors show when times get tough.
I'm not angry. I'm not happy. I'm not sad nor am I extatic that things came to such and end. I'm not vengeful. I'm not sorrowful. I am not any emotion that can be labeled or defined. I am floating through my sea of thoughts and dreams, and I know that nothing can be obtained by depending on someone else for the meanings and truths that are out there.
How do you say goodbye to what was once thought of as an idea of perfection? How do you let go of what was the one thing you wanted most in life, but now realize wasn't what you wanted at all? How do you accept the fact that you were fooled by the one you loved, and though the lesson learned came at a price, it was a lesson that was priceless and amazing all in itself. I cannot explain what I mean. I cannot tell you how I feel. All I can say is that maybe at a different time in life, maybe at a different intersection, the road would have been smoother and led to the paradise we all seek in our everyday lives.
We were meant to be this way. We were meant to "end" this way. But with every end, there is a new and fresh beginning. With every close of a door, a window is opened. I know that this was meant to be this way, and nothing is better than fully knowing and understanding why things happened the way they did. For once, I am not in the dark wondering the "what if's", but I am making my way through it anticipating what's next. Holding my head up high, I am walking into the unknown, being clothed by the warmth of the sun, and preparing myself for the life I was truly meant to lead.
posted by Ill-Fated Butterfly at 2:30 AM
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